Posted in People

Adios

I have a friend who will be leaving today.  He will  be trained as a cadet at  the Philippine Military Academy. Studying in the academy means we won’t be seeing him for a year or more. We don’t even know if they are allowed to use phones there or check their social media accounts. We’re here in Mindanao,  while he will be in Luzon. We can’t visit him anytime we want.

I am so happy and proud because his dream is now coming into reality.  I am praying that he will prosper in that field and will serve the country in the future. The country will surely have a hard working and a very dedicated servant. But,  I can’t help myself not to be sad. Who won’t be sad at the thought that you will lose a friend,  physically.

Anyways,  I am so used to it,  meeting people,  being close to them,  then after all the moments you’ve shared together, they will leave you.  When you thought they will remain by your side,  they started walking away.  When everything is perfect and happiness seems not to lasts,  they slowly ruining it without even realizing it. I know it very well,  because I remember every one that leaves. At first they will try to contact you,  they will keep in touch and will start missing you.  But that is temporarily, every thing is temporary.  Little by little,  he/she will surely forget you.  And that is the pain about separation,  the feeling of being replaced.  Sooner,  he/she will find someone  better than you and your memories will remain  memories forever.

I hugged him for the last time.  I hope that, that hug will send him signals of how much I care and love him. No romantic feelings involve just a pure platonic way of love. Our memories will be buried deep down into his heart,  memories that he won’t try to revisit.  I know it,  even if he says it won’t happen, I know the pattern very well. I was about to tell him about it but it won’t help him in a way,  so I decided to shut my mouth.

So,  if ever he did not understand those signals. This is what I’m trying to convey.  I didn’t know that I’ve met you 2 years ago because it seems like I’ve known you for 5 years or more.  See,  numbers really doesn’t matter,  memories does.  Thank you for being patient with me and for always affirming me about my talents even if it just an ordinary one.  We both know I am not perfect but still you always see perfection in me and in everything I do.  Thank you for always believing in me and for trusting me that I can do better every day.  I will be forever grateful by your presence and by your existence.  I hope that you will keep your promise even though I am in doubt. You might forget me,  but I know facebook will keep reminding you about our memories hahahahaha (thanks fb). You will always have a space in my life and when everything doesn’t seem right just breathe in and out.  And remember that everything is temporary, and that one will surely pass too.  Never give up and hope to see you after 4 years living a life you’ve been dreaming off.  I wish you all the best and dont forget to center Christ in everything you do.

Life is a journey,  you remember to always take good care of yourself because that is the only way  you can repay people who loves you. Till we meet again. Bon Voyage!

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Posted in Travel

Panikian Island

I’ve been here once.  And that once,  helps me realized that there are a lot of beautiful places in my country that are not discovered yet

I’ve seen so many beautiful beaches,  in pictures and in reality.  My favorites are at Siquijor,  it is a very beautiful island filled with beautiful works of arts made by God.  My mom grew up there,  when I am little,  we used to go there every vacation and when I go home here in Iligan,  people can’t recognize me especially at night time because I somehow camouflage the night.  Funny though.  

Panikian island is located at Pitogo, Zamboanga del Sur. If it looks good in pictures, well I guess you just need to see it for yourself. Pictures did give justice, but I tell you, it looks best if you see it face to face. You can roam and tour the island by walking for an hour and a half. The sea breeze that touches my face  and the beautiful view makes me fall in-love again and again.  

Our tour guide said that this island is where the Pawikan lay  eggs.  So they are protecting the island as much as they can. No overnight stay in the island,  because,  Pawikan and other animals living there will be disturb.  No garbage is allowed to be thrown away anywhere.  Which people should practice more. 

During our 5 hours stay there,  I was hoping to see a pawikan.  But,  no good at that time.  Maybe you are wondering why it is called panikian island and not pawikan island.  I don’t know the answer either.  Maybe because there are a lot of bat residing here too.  Because I am very amazed by the view that I can’t barely remember if I did asked it to them or not. Well,  I will find the answer soon.  

Now,  I am reminded by a person  who always reminding me that anywhere I go,  I should leave nothing but footprints,  take nothing but pictures and kill nothing but time.  
  

Posted in Thoughts

Passerby

Have you experience a scenario in your life where you saw people leaving? Why did they left? How does it feels? until now?

 

I used to be a very emotional and sentimental lass, I tend to get attached easily. Yah, “used to be” and now I can say I am still,  the difference is just I know now my limits. I know who to keep and who to let go. I can handle my emotions when people start to walk away and I need to hold back my tears just to let the world see how strong I am. But at the end of the day, I let all the tears fall down, simply because I can’t lie to myself.

 

My mom died when I’m 4 years old, at that time, I don’t understand what’s happening. I thought she is just sleeping in that white rectangular box, and our relatives and friends are visiting us, just to see her sleep. And in her burial, I cry because I saw people crying. What do you expect to a 4 years old little girl?  Then, 9 years after, my first love died. He died in an accident. I thought at that time that I am not worthy of loving. Maybe God thought I am not. I am afraid to love again, because I am afraid that they might all die, because of me (hahaha). Years went so fast, I met a lot of different people. We shared memories together and I thought that it will be forever, I thought that they will keep all those memories enough not to leave me. But they still left, good thing they did not die. I shed a tear everytime they bid farewell. We promised to keep in touch but it did not lasts long, which makes me feel sad more.

 

I’ve realized that there are some people in our life that are only passerby. Some would say, it is better if we won’t cross path if you were only a passerby, to avoid getting hurt. But in my opinion, those passerby, makes me happy in some way and I will be forever grateful in their existence in my life. How can I regret something that makes me happy?

 

You too is a passerby in someones life right now, make a good memories together so you can have something to keep. May you enjoy your journey.