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Passerby

Have you experience a scenario in your life where you saw people leaving? Why did they left? How does it feels? until now?

 

I used to be a very emotional and sentimental lass, I tend to get attached easily. Yah, “used to be” and now I can say I am still,  the difference is just I know now my limits. I know who to keep and why I need to let them go. I can handle my emotions when people start to walk away and I need to hold back my tears just to let the world see how strong I am. But at the end of the day, I let all the tears fall down, simply because I can’t lie to myself.

 

My mom died when I was 4 years old, I don’t understand what’s happening. I thought she is just sleeping in that white rectangular box, and our relatives and friends are visiting us, just to see her sleep, funny right? And in her burial, I cry because I saw people crying. What do you expect to a 4-year old little girl?  Then, 9 years after, my first love died. He died in an accident. I thought at that time that I am not worthy of loving. Maybe God thought I am not. I am afraid to love again, because I am afraid that they might all die, because of me (hahaha crazy). Years passed by so fast, I met a lot of different people. We shared memories together and I thought that it will be forever, I thought that they will keep all those memories enough not to leave me. But still, they left, good thing they did not die. I shed a tear everytime they bid farewell and I shed more if they don’t.

 

I’ve realized that there are some people in our life that are only passerby. Some would say, it is better if we won’t cross path if you were only a passerby, to avoid getting hurt. But in my opinion, those passerby, makes me happy in some way and I will be forever grateful in their existence in my life. How can I regret something that makes me so happy?

 

You too is a passerby in someone else’s life right now, make a good memories together so you can have something to keep. May you enjoy your journey.

 

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