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Have you experience a scenario in your life where you saw people leaving? Why did they left? How does it feels? until now?


I used to be a very emotional and sentimental lass, I tend to get attached easily. Yah, “used to be” and now I can say I am still,  the difference is just I know now my limits. I know who to keep and who to let go. I can handle my emotions when people start to walk away and I need to hold back my tears just to let the world see how strong I am. But at the end of the day, I let all the tears fall down, simply because I can’t lie to myself.


My mom died when I’m 4 years old, at that time, I don’t understand what’s happening. I thought she is just sleeping in that white rectangular box, and our relatives and friends are visiting us, just to see her sleep. And in her burial, I cry because I saw people crying. What do you expect to a 4 years old little girl?  Then, 9 years after, my first love died. He died in an accident. I thought at that time that I am not worthy of loving. Maybe God thought I am not. I am afraid to love again, because I am afraid that they might all die, because of me (hahaha). Years went so fast, I met a lot of different people. We shared memories together and I thought that it will be forever, I thought that they will keep all those memories enough not to leave me. But they still left, good thing they did not die. I shed a tear everytime they bid farewell. We promised to keep in touch but it did not lasts long, which makes me feel sad more.


I’ve realized that there are some people in our life that are only passerby. Some would say, it is better if we won’t cross path if you were only a passerby, to avoid getting hurt. But in my opinion, those passerby, makes me happy in some way and I will be forever grateful in their existence in my life. How can I regret something that makes me happy?


You too is a passerby in someones life right now, make a good memories together so you can have something to keep. May you enjoy your journey.


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Color it Green

In your opinion what is the color of love?  and why you say so? 


I randomly asked my friends about the question above. Well, some says red because red is the color of the blood and heart. Which is scientifically correct. Then some says, white, because our love is pure. Hmm, okay, I can’t argue with that. I totally agree that the parents’ love to their children is  pure love. Some says black, because we are selfish in love and we tend to hurt people a lot, intentionally or unintentionally.Then, I saw this view, this beautiful view. And I realized, in a world full of red, black and white, would it be possible to notice green as love? Can we color it green?


According to google, the color green relates to balance and harmony.From a color psychology perspective, it is the great balancer of the heart and the emotions, creating equilibrium between the head and the heart.From a meaning of colors perspective, green is also the color of growth, the color of spring, of renewal and rebirth.Wow! that is very impressive.


For me, the color of love is green. Because, green is a color of a healthy food or place. We may not notice but green is everywhere. As you can see, the earth is filled with green, the trees, the leaves, plants, animals and mountains. God made them green, to add more beauty in this world. Green, because like the plants, we need sunlight , a little rain and nutrients to help us nurture and  grow healthier. We may not grow in the same soil, but one thing is for sure, we all want to grow happily with our love ones. We may always bear in mind, that just because we did not grow in a good soil doesn’t mean we are not a good plant or  we are cared less. We all grow no matter what, and I can assure you God always takes good care of everyone, to be happy and healthier. Imagine how those plants/trees survived in the rainforest? God takes good care of them.Think of it, you always envy someone you is being taken care of, and that someone will always appear to be the most beautiful in your eyes. But you didn’t notice that you are the most beautiful of all, because God is taking good care of you. You are God’s beloved.God is giving us all we need, not all we want. Because the things we want for ourselves our sometimes the things we don’t need. But maybe sometimes, we just like the other way around, because we were blinded by the things this modern world is showing us.


Always remember, after all this rain we’ve been through, and when the sun finally comes out, we will shine greener and greener, which will indicate our nourishment, our victory towards life. Since, we are God’s stewards, let us take care of this earth, let us protect life, let us color it green.